i honestly want a large group to read this, but I do have to rate it about teen. Please note this is about how i am treated by one person and it mightbe a trigger for some of you.
For a long time, i was active in my church, mostly VBS.
Most years I was part of the music department, but I was constantly turned away from the kitchen because it was 'kids first' before volunteers. Even my most innocent interactions were seen as 'pesky fly who doesn't understand the rules'.
I finally got around that when i did outside activities, but this entry isn't about that and the kitchen regime.
This is about Margie.
I attended one of her VBS summers at her church and every interaction since was negative and filled with dislike.
Back then, I was told to go sit down and was barely given the chance before she got up into my space in that 'discipline misbehaving child' way that i felt was completely uncalled for, but ive since understood miss control freak has a mental image of the world and will make you feel like shit to do it.
She's considered a 'pillar of the community' and cant be touched or badmouthed, so i can't say anything. But I want someone to take her down a few pegs, it just won't be me because I don't think it would be as meaningful or as fulfilling but it'll never happen.
I know she doesn't like me - and i know very well that most church goers are even more biased against the people they are supposed to accept - and the feeling is very mutual.
I think she might still be a teacher and i thought i heard that she had experience with 'special needs' kids, but that shocked me because my early interactions with her did not reflect the type of person she claims to be.
Im not going to let her win, but I don't know how or if i should set that horrible behavior aside for the good of the team. I don't think she is an inclusive leader and i want many people to see that, but i know it's never going to happen.
I compare her to other church people and find her significantly lacking, so i don't think she's happy in life or maybe she is and has a shit way to show it.
Margie is a fake and I said what i said. I just need to figure out how to navigate future interactions without losing my cool and getting a bystander in trouble.
For a long time, i was active in my church, mostly VBS.
Most years I was part of the music department, but I was constantly turned away from the kitchen because it was 'kids first' before volunteers. Even my most innocent interactions were seen as 'pesky fly who doesn't understand the rules'.
I finally got around that when i did outside activities, but this entry isn't about that and the kitchen regime.
This is about Margie.
I attended one of her VBS summers at her church and every interaction since was negative and filled with dislike.
Back then, I was told to go sit down and was barely given the chance before she got up into my space in that 'discipline misbehaving child' way that i felt was completely uncalled for, but ive since understood miss control freak has a mental image of the world and will make you feel like shit to do it.
She's considered a 'pillar of the community' and cant be touched or badmouthed, so i can't say anything. But I want someone to take her down a few pegs, it just won't be me because I don't think it would be as meaningful or as fulfilling but it'll never happen.
I know she doesn't like me - and i know very well that most church goers are even more biased against the people they are supposed to accept - and the feeling is very mutual.
I think she might still be a teacher and i thought i heard that she had experience with 'special needs' kids, but that shocked me because my early interactions with her did not reflect the type of person she claims to be.
Im not going to let her win, but I don't know how or if i should set that horrible behavior aside for the good of the team. I don't think she is an inclusive leader and i want many people to see that, but i know it's never going to happen.
I compare her to other church people and find her significantly lacking, so i don't think she's happy in life or maybe she is and has a shit way to show it.
Margie is a fake and I said what i said. I just need to figure out how to navigate future interactions without losing my cool and getting a bystander in trouble.
There are a list of things that Americans know very well and the Amendments are part of that list.
*SPOILER ALERT*
Back when I was in high school, I took an Earth Science class. I still think the teacher was one of the best I ever had. Kind of reminded me of Ms. Frizzle in a way, but she was definitely in a class of her own.
One day, I was introduced to a 'what if' program about Yellowstone and was fascinated.
It raises some interesting points on the parts of the scientists that flew over my head for the longest time and I still don't know when or why it actually hit me, but I can't unlearn it all this time on. I think I based some of After Tomorrow on it and I really like how it played out.
But anyway.
I found the full two hour uncut movie on YouTube - from Jazz Brodi - after Netflix and I'm watching it as I type this now.
The program starts off following a military group on snow machines in a tundra wasteland and they all converge on some kind of compound.
One of them drops inside the hatch and finds a video recording of someone who left it there five years ago, telling of an incredible cataclysmic event he finds himself in.
The title card then appears and we are transported five years into the past - to the Yellowstone of old.
And it's just a regular day at Yellowstone, where we meet some of the characters forced into a press conference to unveil their newest tool called Virgil - or Virtual Geophysical Imaging Laboratory.
This sequence kind of establishes how the scientific team feels about it and the pains they have to endure about the Big Question everyone wants to know: is it going to erupt?
Over the first half hour of the movie, there is significant seismic activity that just draws more and more scrutiny as the characters have to deal with public unease - not helped by a television interview that claimed the volcano was significantly overdue for an eruption. The team gets inundated with calls from the public and I like that they showed this because it portrays a real life response to a real life threat perceived by real life people.
The main character has to explain to a FEMA official what this could look like and it's sobering on a massive scale.
Meanwhile, Yellowstone is still active and the team is hesitant to give a clear answer - to even think it - in response to all the media questions about an eruption.
The main character - Rick - is kind of worried about what he's seeing as time goes on, but he can't really say anything due to past experience and it's understandable because he also doesn't know exactly what the signs are telling him. Each and every incident at Yellowstone is not necessarily indicative of an eruption.
But I think Rick is getting suspicious early on. He just doesn't have the proof to back it up - until he and his team actually go out to Yellowstone.
The more they observe, the more anxious they get and it takes a harmonic tremor for them to realize that this is it - the volcano is going to go.
They struggle with what to do with the information until Rick finally says, "Look. I will brief FEMA and I will brief the State, but just before they evacuate the whole of America, they're gonna want to know how big the thing's gonna be."
But in the process of doing so, he's pressured into downplaying the whole thing by higher people - including his own boss - so as not. To. Cause. A. Panic.
This is the point where I drew the most inspiration from: as a scientist, what would you do in this situation and how would you do it? And think about the people who will be affected by your information as well as the ones in charge of the disaster prep who will be dealing with the fallout from your decision.
He ends up lying in front of the cameras that it is not going to be a big deal.
And what ends up happening?
It turns out to be A Very Big Deal.
On a global scale.
And you don't find out what happens to Rick until the very end.
.
**
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I cannot tell you how beautiful I think this program is.
Morbid, yes, but beautifully created all the same.
I also like that there are 'interviews' with a lot of the players five years later to give us some more information about what we were seeing as the movie continued.
Really well done!
Back when I was in high school, I took an Earth Science class. I still think the teacher was one of the best I ever had. Kind of reminded me of Ms. Frizzle in a way, but she was definitely in a class of her own.
One day, I was introduced to a 'what if' program about Yellowstone and was fascinated.
It raises some interesting points on the parts of the scientists that flew over my head for the longest time and I still don't know when or why it actually hit me, but I can't unlearn it all this time on. I think I based some of After Tomorrow on it and I really like how it played out.
But anyway.
I found the full two hour uncut movie on YouTube - from Jazz Brodi - after Netflix and I'm watching it as I type this now.
The program starts off following a military group on snow machines in a tundra wasteland and they all converge on some kind of compound.
One of them drops inside the hatch and finds a video recording of someone who left it there five years ago, telling of an incredible cataclysmic event he finds himself in.
The title card then appears and we are transported five years into the past - to the Yellowstone of old.
And it's just a regular day at Yellowstone, where we meet some of the characters forced into a press conference to unveil their newest tool called Virgil - or Virtual Geophysical Imaging Laboratory.
This sequence kind of establishes how the scientific team feels about it and the pains they have to endure about the Big Question everyone wants to know: is it going to erupt?
Over the first half hour of the movie, there is significant seismic activity that just draws more and more scrutiny as the characters have to deal with public unease - not helped by a television interview that claimed the volcano was significantly overdue for an eruption. The team gets inundated with calls from the public and I like that they showed this because it portrays a real life response to a real life threat perceived by real life people.
The main character has to explain to a FEMA official what this could look like and it's sobering on a massive scale.
Meanwhile, Yellowstone is still active and the team is hesitant to give a clear answer - to even think it - in response to all the media questions about an eruption.
The main character - Rick - is kind of worried about what he's seeing as time goes on, but he can't really say anything due to past experience and it's understandable because he also doesn't know exactly what the signs are telling him. Each and every incident at Yellowstone is not necessarily indicative of an eruption.
But I think Rick is getting suspicious early on. He just doesn't have the proof to back it up - until he and his team actually go out to Yellowstone.
The more they observe, the more anxious they get and it takes a harmonic tremor for them to realize that this is it - the volcano is going to go.
They struggle with what to do with the information until Rick finally says, "Look. I will brief FEMA and I will brief the State, but just before they evacuate the whole of America, they're gonna want to know how big the thing's gonna be."
But in the process of doing so, he's pressured into downplaying the whole thing by higher people - including his own boss - so as not. To. Cause. A. Panic.
This is the point where I drew the most inspiration from: as a scientist, what would you do in this situation and how would you do it? And think about the people who will be affected by your information as well as the ones in charge of the disaster prep who will be dealing with the fallout from your decision.
He ends up lying in front of the cameras that it is not going to be a big deal.
And what ends up happening?
It turns out to be A Very Big Deal.
On a global scale.
And you don't find out what happens to Rick until the very end.
.
**
.
I cannot tell you how beautiful I think this program is.
Morbid, yes, but beautifully created all the same.
I also like that there are 'interviews' with a lot of the players five years later to give us some more information about what we were seeing as the movie continued.
Really well done!
As the world celebrates the turning of a new year, we look forward to what lies ahead in 2022.
Hopefully it will be so much better than the one we left. We just need to keep fighting for peace of mind and happiness in the coming year.
As the minutes tick ever closer to midnight, I think about the things we promised to do.
Like cleaning my room a little more, conquering a local nature trail all by myself, beating some Team Rocket Leaders in Pokemon Go, and being nicer and less petty.
Like practicing my communication skills and being happier and trying to be in touch with Facebook friends and starting the challenge of accepting certain parts of myself that I only recently became aware of.
Like accepting that I have anxiety and a lot of it has to do with the Virus.
Like rediscovering the magic of imagination.
The year has ended.
And if we have to fight for happiness this year - so.
Be
It.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Hopefully it will be so much better than the one we left. We just need to keep fighting for peace of mind and happiness in the coming year.
As the minutes tick ever closer to midnight, I think about the things we promised to do.
Like cleaning my room a little more, conquering a local nature trail all by myself, beating some Team Rocket Leaders in Pokemon Go, and being nicer and less petty.
Like practicing my communication skills and being happier and trying to be in touch with Facebook friends and starting the challenge of accepting certain parts of myself that I only recently became aware of.
Like accepting that I have anxiety and a lot of it has to do with the Virus.
Like rediscovering the magic of imagination.
The year has ended.
And if we have to fight for happiness this year - so.
Be
It.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
*please watch your step. This is an angry therapy entry*
Is it just me or do older people use the age excuse to treat people like shit? "I'm your elder so you're supposed to respect me and don't talk back."
Then there's "You have to earn respect, it is not given."
So I can give an older person respect when I think they've earned it?
--
There's an older person in my household that is one of those ... overbearing (?) types and it grates on my fucking nerves. Especially when I'm strung out already.
I get it. They are stuck at home all day, doing all the chores that the rest of us don't have time to do. I do feel bad about that, but it hasn't been a good several weeks. And I'm out of energy so I can't do a fucking thing even if I wanted to.
Then there's assumptions about "she said later, which means never" and I'm like, you know what? If you already knew that, why ask when you can fucking do it yourself then? I was already thinking about doing what you asked until that point, so now I'm not willing to do that anymore.
--
I'm an introvert. I can't deal with people and being fucking nice twenty. Four. Seven.
I want to be brutally honest and know that someone isn't going to take offense. I'm not necessarily a nice person and the muzzle fucking chafes all the damn time.
I don't necessarily mean to snap at people, but that's how it comes across apparently.
And, yeah, I would like that freedom of pouring vitriol about someone just for the sake of venting about being talked to like a child or that I'm not fucking okay with how communication has apparently been on a downward spiral and I think I knew that at some point but the person I've been going to about regular stuff might not have actually been all that helpful because now I don't know what to talk to them about without feeling worse than I already was.
I now have the option of talking to a few other people who might be better for me to talk to and I need that option open to me right now. Because lately I've been lashing out and bossing people around and I'm almost seventy five percent certain the last one is not entirely on me.
The person I've been going to told me some things and I don't think they meant for me to act the way I've been acting as a result of those things. I suspect it was to boost my confidence or self esteem, but it backfired and yeah there's actually been some personal things going on. I'm just realizing that it can't only be things like my dad's health issues or my fascination with a certain walking game - although that's kind of given me an entirely different set of issues.
I was given a mindset or I created one from things said to me. I'm not saying it's either of our faults, but they might have to think about why they tell me what they tell me and what they want want to see as a result. Kind of like how they tell me to be self aware about what I say and how I say it.
Oh well.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Is it just me or do older people use the age excuse to treat people like shit? "I'm your elder so you're supposed to respect me and don't talk back."
Then there's "You have to earn respect, it is not given."
So I can give an older person respect when I think they've earned it?
--
There's an older person in my household that is one of those ... overbearing (?) types and it grates on my fucking nerves. Especially when I'm strung out already.
I get it. They are stuck at home all day, doing all the chores that the rest of us don't have time to do. I do feel bad about that, but it hasn't been a good several weeks. And I'm out of energy so I can't do a fucking thing even if I wanted to.
Then there's assumptions about "she said later, which means never" and I'm like, you know what? If you already knew that, why ask when you can fucking do it yourself then? I was already thinking about doing what you asked until that point, so now I'm not willing to do that anymore.
--
I'm an introvert. I can't deal with people and being fucking nice twenty. Four. Seven.
I want to be brutally honest and know that someone isn't going to take offense. I'm not necessarily a nice person and the muzzle fucking chafes all the damn time.
I don't necessarily mean to snap at people, but that's how it comes across apparently.
And, yeah, I would like that freedom of pouring vitriol about someone just for the sake of venting about being talked to like a child or that I'm not fucking okay with how communication has apparently been on a downward spiral and I think I knew that at some point but the person I've been going to about regular stuff might not have actually been all that helpful because now I don't know what to talk to them about without feeling worse than I already was.
I now have the option of talking to a few other people who might be better for me to talk to and I need that option open to me right now. Because lately I've been lashing out and bossing people around and I'm almost seventy five percent certain the last one is not entirely on me.
The person I've been going to told me some things and I don't think they meant for me to act the way I've been acting as a result of those things. I suspect it was to boost my confidence or self esteem, but it backfired and yeah there's actually been some personal things going on. I'm just realizing that it can't only be things like my dad's health issues or my fascination with a certain walking game - although that's kind of given me an entirely different set of issues.
I was given a mindset or I created one from things said to me. I'm not saying it's either of our faults, but they might have to think about why they tell me what they tell me and what they want want to see as a result. Kind of like how they tell me to be self aware about what I say and how I say it.
Oh well.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I know that there are things that religion says you shouldn't believe and I understand that the rest of us have our own beliefs that contradict those teachings.
I happen to be among the contradictory masses and I don't understand how this particular sticking point isn't taught in Catholic and like-minded circles.
I happen to be among the contradictory masses and I don't understand how this particular sticking point isn't taught in Catholic and like-minded circles.
I have a lot of Facebook friends and sometimes I'll have a post or something that unexpectedly manages to get a response out of a number of them.
One of the more popular ones involve me going out, doing something or something new with my appearance. Understandable, since I'm a house mouse who doesn't have a traveler's soul and is in the middle of a new story I would like to get written up and finished. Can't say I'm the most outgoing and a lot of them seem to encourage my ventures out and about.
I have one friend who has a habit of dropping ... strong compliments that I don't know what to do with or feel comfortable about. When I think about it, he is encouraging towards his female friends but in a way I'm not used to having directed toward me.
I got a haircut yesterday from a different friend - which was a novel experience because I now apparently have a regular hairdresser? - and sure enough I got strong compliments from him again when I posted it.
This time, though, I came to the realization that he sees me in a way I do not see myself. I consider myself cute, but nothing really special. And if he sees something he likes, then others do, too. He's just more forward about it than I'm comfortable with.
I'm still not comfortable with strong positive stuff about me - especially if it's said to my face -, but it's different than a glowing review of one of my stories and I don't necessarily know why that is.
Maybe it's because I don't think about myself sometimes and get thrown for a loop every time someone points something out. I don't have a lot of positive experience with real life? Not many close friends?
I don't know how to feel about all of this, but I think it's something that a lot of us grapple with - those of us who aren't confident about ourselves or just don't see the stuff others can.
It reminds me of a White Collar idea that I'm still playing around with. Peter has to go out of town to the West Coast for whatever reason and comes back acting out of sorts. Neal finds out that Peter had gotten an anonymous note that told him he's beautiful and he's never thought that of himself because no one's ever told him.
- if you want to take the plot bunny you are welcome to because I keep wanting to turn it into a body worship thing for Neal to do and I'm not sure I can do it the way I want it done. I can read stuff like that but I'm not in the kind of mind space for writing it.
It's actually inspired by a picture of a note that a group of my friends like to circulate every so often, meant to be positive and uplifting and encouraging self-confidence, saying you are beautiful ❤️. I saw that one day and somehow started wondering what it would be like if someone actually gave me a note like that.
... I would blank out and get flustered, for one thing. Like the friend I told you about before saying those nice things about me. And I naturally thought about the fandom I would put that in - which was actually very easy because you don't actually have Peter centric stories in the WC fandom the way you would Elizabeth and especially Neal.
It's like, I know that we tend to think of Neal as beautiful and all these other things and I know that he's usually the insecure one about himself while Peter is more solid. But I would like a more confident Neal and an unexpectedly insecure Peter and that pretty much reflects my current mood right there.
Any takers?
But in regards to myself, I guess I'll have to get used to strong positive. I have people who are not afraid to put their opinions out there whether I'm comfortable with those opinions or not. I can't stop them. Maybe I'll even get used to them and maybe I'll be a little better for it.
Every person wants to know people like how they look. Not in a way that goes overboard, but in unexpected ways. Things that sound flirtatious might be truthful and you just ... struggle with that.
And that's okay.
We are entitled to accepting ourselves at our own pace. Some of us slower than others and that's okay, too.
*hugs*
One of the more popular ones involve me going out, doing something or something new with my appearance. Understandable, since I'm a house mouse who doesn't have a traveler's soul and is in the middle of a new story I would like to get written up and finished. Can't say I'm the most outgoing and a lot of them seem to encourage my ventures out and about.
I have one friend who has a habit of dropping ... strong compliments that I don't know what to do with or feel comfortable about. When I think about it, he is encouraging towards his female friends but in a way I'm not used to having directed toward me.
I got a haircut yesterday from a different friend - which was a novel experience because I now apparently have a regular hairdresser? - and sure enough I got strong compliments from him again when I posted it.
This time, though, I came to the realization that he sees me in a way I do not see myself. I consider myself cute, but nothing really special. And if he sees something he likes, then others do, too. He's just more forward about it than I'm comfortable with.
I'm still not comfortable with strong positive stuff about me - especially if it's said to my face -, but it's different than a glowing review of one of my stories and I don't necessarily know why that is.
Maybe it's because I don't think about myself sometimes and get thrown for a loop every time someone points something out. I don't have a lot of positive experience with real life? Not many close friends?
I don't know how to feel about all of this, but I think it's something that a lot of us grapple with - those of us who aren't confident about ourselves or just don't see the stuff others can.
It reminds me of a White Collar idea that I'm still playing around with. Peter has to go out of town to the West Coast for whatever reason and comes back acting out of sorts. Neal finds out that Peter had gotten an anonymous note that told him he's beautiful and he's never thought that of himself because no one's ever told him.
- if you want to take the plot bunny you are welcome to because I keep wanting to turn it into a body worship thing for Neal to do and I'm not sure I can do it the way I want it done. I can read stuff like that but I'm not in the kind of mind space for writing it.
It's actually inspired by a picture of a note that a group of my friends like to circulate every so often, meant to be positive and uplifting and encouraging self-confidence, saying you are beautiful ❤️. I saw that one day and somehow started wondering what it would be like if someone actually gave me a note like that.
... I would blank out and get flustered, for one thing. Like the friend I told you about before saying those nice things about me. And I naturally thought about the fandom I would put that in - which was actually very easy because you don't actually have Peter centric stories in the WC fandom the way you would Elizabeth and especially Neal.
It's like, I know that we tend to think of Neal as beautiful and all these other things and I know that he's usually the insecure one about himself while Peter is more solid. But I would like a more confident Neal and an unexpectedly insecure Peter and that pretty much reflects my current mood right there.
Any takers?
But in regards to myself, I guess I'll have to get used to strong positive. I have people who are not afraid to put their opinions out there whether I'm comfortable with those opinions or not. I can't stop them. Maybe I'll even get used to them and maybe I'll be a little better for it.
Every person wants to know people like how they look. Not in a way that goes overboard, but in unexpected ways. Things that sound flirtatious might be truthful and you just ... struggle with that.
And that's okay.
We are entitled to accepting ourselves at our own pace. Some of us slower than others and that's okay, too.
*hugs*
Dragged myself back to TJ to buy a tea box and a set of body butter on Wednesday.
The tea box freed up a lot of space in the cupboard/pantry. Very impressive. The problem now is of drinking the tea.
Wandered next door to Ross and the atmosphere was a complete change. I can't explain it, it's one of those you have to be there things. I am interested to know if other locations are like that too or is it just the ones down here?
The tea box freed up a lot of space in the cupboard/pantry. Very impressive. The problem now is of drinking the tea.
Wandered next door to Ross and the atmosphere was a complete change. I can't explain it, it's one of those you have to be there things. I am interested to know if other locations are like that too or is it just the ones down here?
I've been meaning to get some new clothes for a while, including church stuff and shorts.
Today, I decided to visit TJ and snoop around.
Still have no idea what 'knitwear' is supposed to mean, but I took a bunch of stuff to try in the dressing room. I ended up with two keepers out of nine attempts and I am now the proud owner of a flowy blue and white skirt. It went really nice with a pink tank top, but pink in that particular shade might not have been the best choice.
Instead, I got a different tank top, a blue/gray affair that feels really nice in the shoulder.
Once I decided, I wandered around TJ's bathroom stuff and found a pink hairbrush that fits my hand pretty good. I can't remember when I got my blue and green one, but I think it's been long enough. It's looking a little raggedy, so it's time.
I found that they have a small food section and picked up a French delicacy evidently called 'Macaroon' in Italy. 乁( •_• )ㄏ
There's nice stuff and I was tempted to pick up a tea organizing box but I'm doing pretty good without it so far. If I decide to change my mind, it'll still be there.
There was a huge cloth dreamcatcher that might've looked interesting on my wall, but that would be Squeaky the cat's dream toy so I walked on.
Tried some summer shoes, but wasn't interested in the fit. Kept myself from buying bar soap.
Didn't really need the skirt, but it looks like it can go with other tops in my closet.
All in all, not a bad visit.
Didn't find shorts I liked, so that will be up to Ross for Round Two. Kohls is best for last since it hasn't failed me yet, but clothes shopping still kind of intimidates me.
Though I can see how shopping is a stress relief tactic. It feels nice when alone and shopping for yourself.
Today, I decided to visit TJ and snoop around.
Still have no idea what 'knitwear' is supposed to mean, but I took a bunch of stuff to try in the dressing room. I ended up with two keepers out of nine attempts and I am now the proud owner of a flowy blue and white skirt. It went really nice with a pink tank top, but pink in that particular shade might not have been the best choice.
Instead, I got a different tank top, a blue/gray affair that feels really nice in the shoulder.
Once I decided, I wandered around TJ's bathroom stuff and found a pink hairbrush that fits my hand pretty good. I can't remember when I got my blue and green one, but I think it's been long enough. It's looking a little raggedy, so it's time.
I found that they have a small food section and picked up a French delicacy evidently called 'Macaroon' in Italy. 乁( •_• )ㄏ
There's nice stuff and I was tempted to pick up a tea organizing box but I'm doing pretty good without it so far. If I decide to change my mind, it'll still be there.
There was a huge cloth dreamcatcher that might've looked interesting on my wall, but that would be Squeaky the cat's dream toy so I walked on.
Tried some summer shoes, but wasn't interested in the fit. Kept myself from buying bar soap.
Didn't really need the skirt, but it looks like it can go with other tops in my closet.
All in all, not a bad visit.
Didn't find shorts I liked, so that will be up to Ross for Round Two. Kohls is best for last since it hasn't failed me yet, but clothes shopping still kind of intimidates me.
Though I can see how shopping is a stress relief tactic. It feels nice when alone and shopping for yourself.
- Current Mood:
relaxed
Not quite a Rated Teen, but there is mention of a same-sex pairing as well as discussion of themes that teen and older readers would be more able to understand as opposed to the younger ones - though it may be an interesting conversation to start.
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I've been sitting on a story for Inception - Arthur/Eames pairing - and it's one of those stories that comes out of an idea that you want to write, but you don't have the slightest clue about how to start.
For awhile now, I've been interested in the poem The Blue and the Gray. I eventually got the idea to put it in Inception and I actually like how it turned out.
In the story, Arthur starts as a child who finds an overgrown grave and adopts it into his small family. Adult Arthur has to do some soul searching as a result, but I deliberately chose a vague path on that aspect because I believe that people spend entire lifetimes trying to come to terms with things they found out about a family member - regardless of what the family member did or didn't do.
As I was writing certain parts, I noticed how easily relatable people can find it in the context of their own lives.
Eames doesn't come in right away, but I liked including him.
Arthur also goes through losing a favored cousin, something that he begins to process only years later. And I like to think that's relatable, too.
- * -
I actually have my first comments on it and they made my weekend! Strange, considering how I was prepared to have absolutely no comments on it for a long time.
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Went to a Chinese buffet all by myself for the first time yesterday.
This year has been full of firsts: First thing I bought online that wasn't bath and body works - a fan pull, the first Amazon purchase - The Coming Global Superstorm (which inspired Day After Tomorrow!) ...
I sent out my first package to someone out of state and I think they got it a couple days ago.
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I've been sitting on a story for Inception - Arthur/Eames pairing - and it's one of those stories that comes out of an idea that you want to write, but you don't have the slightest clue about how to start.
For awhile now, I've been interested in the poem The Blue and the Gray. I eventually got the idea to put it in Inception and I actually like how it turned out.
In the story, Arthur starts as a child who finds an overgrown grave and adopts it into his small family. Adult Arthur has to do some soul searching as a result, but I deliberately chose a vague path on that aspect because I believe that people spend entire lifetimes trying to come to terms with things they found out about a family member - regardless of what the family member did or didn't do.
As I was writing certain parts, I noticed how easily relatable people can find it in the context of their own lives.
Eames doesn't come in right away, but I liked including him.
Arthur also goes through losing a favored cousin, something that he begins to process only years later. And I like to think that's relatable, too.
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I actually have my first comments on it and they made my weekend! Strange, considering how I was prepared to have absolutely no comments on it for a long time.
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Went to a Chinese buffet all by myself for the first time yesterday.
This year has been full of firsts: First thing I bought online that wasn't bath and body works - a fan pull, the first Amazon purchase - The Coming Global Superstorm (which inspired Day After Tomorrow!) ...
I sent out my first package to someone out of state and I think they got it a couple days ago.
- Current Mood:
contemplative
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