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confused

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Well shit...a new page has opened in my world and I'm confused as hell. Logically I know what's going on but emotionally I'm getting attached. How complicated emotions can be...god damn chemicals in my body...you're driving me nuts. I'm surprised how cool she is and feel bad for her boyfriend...well actually I don't feel bad for him at all, LOL. All is fair in love and war right? Wow I'm evil I know...with a cold black heart...maybe that's why I'm suffering. I will figure this out, with every story there's a beginning and an end.

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tired

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It's true, there's no such thing as failure...only feedback. And how will you get the feedback you need unless you do it? Interesting way to look at it....

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lazy

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It's difficult getting motivated...anyways life is good, as it can be...things are not changing as rapidly as I hoped but its the pain period. I took the leap and damn that was fucking fun. Experiencing hypnosis has really helped me change a lot of my limiting beliefs, and I'll continue to do so...I feel like I'm at tipping point with myself. It will happen...I'll get where I want to be. For some reason I'm not too worried either, its like I'm always running late...but will arrive in style.

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excited

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I feel almost like when I got my library card to for the first time. Access to knowledge and interesting stuff...for reals. Maybe this is history in the making or maybe not. Whatever the reason may be it is happening.

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silly

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I got to say I love casual fridays because, I can practically go to work essentially in the same clothes I went to bed with the night before...now if I could do that everday...I could be almost like a bum but not quite...

It's been awhile...not much to talk about except its thundering and lightning. Staying up late to study for my final(s) which I should be doing now...okay I'm studying now...haha later.

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mellow

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After analyzing this and being around it, I just figured out why some businesses succeed and why some fail...its constant improvement...simple as that...finding new ways to do something better and more efficient...there's always work/business to be done.

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relaxed

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Heh, I just realized something funny...I'm going to run with this...just have fun :)

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happy

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I came to realize something this morning, so I had to write it down. I tend to be at a high point when I'm flowing...in a sense when I'm doing something interesting or learning something new, problem solving, or even challenging myself...that's when I'm there.

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exhausted

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It's already Monday, ah a hellish week this is going to be...I feel as though I'm behind on everything, especially my psych class. I believe I aced my science and religion test. I have a lame communications presentation tomorrow and a business law test, woo hoo fun stuff. I just can't wait until after this first half of the week is over. I'm not really stressing out hardcore but its manifesting itself in a form of constant state of exhaustion and a slight mood of depression. Which I can understand why stress is so unhealthy. Ha fuck stress, peace.

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happy

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The year of the dog as returned...its ironic because I feel as though I've been truly reborn again. Probably one of the best new years I've ever had. Even though I didn't do much, I spent some time with my family. And even got to sit down and had tea with the local buddhist monk. It was all really cool. I enjoyed every minute of it. And then I realized how much time has past in my life, and it has just flown by. I guess I'm at a point that I've started to realize the meaning of setting goals. It's about doing stuff you want to do, or challenge yourself. And given the limited time I have in my life, it feels right to set some goals. Even though you can't always follow through with all of them, however at least they're something to strive for. They give you a sense of direction in this crazy universe. Now I'm going to kick back, enjoy my time and strive for these:

1. Graduate college
2. Learn how to swim
3. Spend sometime overseas
3. Save money...
4. to move out of Lincoln
5. Work for myself, own my own business

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working

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Well Dub has decided to follow through on his plans with Project X. Now it is called PHD, sounds like it might be something to look forward to. It's his pet project so I'm interested to see what happens. I'm a little apprehensive but its worth the risk and and that would save us some money. If it this works out, I think it maybe something I'll have to get into. Anyways I have a new years resolution for myself. I call it Project Mode, it's the culmination of my natural knack for life and creativity. So far the results have been positive, but I'm going to have throttle back on Project Mode because I've started to slack off on my studies to focus on Project Mode. If I didn't have classes to worry about Project Mode would be in full force. However at this point in my life graduation is more important than anything else.

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sleepy

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Well interesting news, my portfolio is up 126%...the highest it has ever been...all due to AMD soaring like an eagle and a thing I like to call black gold...petrolium. Anyways I'm glad I sold Intel earlier, because that shit is tanking now more than when I had it. And I hope exubera passes FDA, because that can boost my portfolio to new levels. But that's not really why I'm really here to write...just here to shoot the shit with myself. It's funny how I like to talk to myself...its almost like a way to sort things out to myself...hahaha. Anyways it almost feels like spring...but its not. I can't wait till this shit gets warmer.

I've been really getting into psychology lately, I don't know why...something about the human mind interests me. I find people in general interersting, we're all different but yet the same. We're almost like animals but possess a thing called rational thought. The ability to think and even question. Why ask why? or why is not spring yet? Even though I know the answer...its the the fact that we possess the conscious ability to question and think...now that's amazing.

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cheerful

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Its funny, I've always thought of myself an I. Labeled an I pretty much up to most of my young adult life. Even took the test my sophmore year of college and I was an INTP/INFP, more so a INTP. But I just retook the test at work and I guess I'm an ENTP/ENFP, and again more so a ENTP. A little bit part the I is there but the E is a dominating force now. But honestly I was truly born an E. Until the 4th grade I became an I just because I wanted to be one. I guess the self experiment is over, looks like I'm back to being mE again.

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relaxed

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Cash your checks and pay your dues.
It's time to spare freedom for a change.
Out the door of the noble truths and into the
midnight stars, where you’ll find games of fame.
Bring a loyal smile for a smashing pint.
Forget your failures of 1929,
have some bathtub gin.
Celebrate why you left everything behind,
while wearing your moonshine grin.
Keep in mind you’ll be fine,
Unless you’re hanging over the toilets brim.

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tired

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Late nights and early mornings never get old.
The sequential shatters of my alarm
raises the dead zombie, who is hungry for food.
Foraging through the cupboard vault of honey.
Breakfast at the shack, music
revolves through the journey to school.

Listen to the latest track, so hot nothing is too cool.
Hip-hop goes a long way and never gets cold
But it’s like ice. Bling Bling blares the music.
Kicking back, enjoying the silence, just like on the farm.
In Australia a warm beer is sacrilegious as stealing money.
Here in the states my salivating soul is sold by some of food.

Exams and essays, long and painful. One has neither capacity nor the mood.
Fast food gives you gas, you’re no fool.
I don’t like coffee or crème, but I’ll have some tea and honey.
Bread sounds good but that grows mold.
Dishonorable dude keeps kicking my chair, should I do him some Kung Fu harm?
Patient rhythms for the oscillating heart, we call it music.

The analog fog filled the psychedelic excursion of music.
A famished crest from the west, drains the rice rain of food.
I’m waiting for the next world war, nobody is safe from harm.
The phone has become a way of life, its convenience of distraction…oh how “cool”.
Jiffy Lube says its time to winterize your car before it gets too cold.
I truly enjoy the sexy smothered smell of honey.

Recklessly running the business of earning honest money.
The freedom unrestrained by the music
rocking my time as I never get cold.
Surviving the fun while being crude.
With the intensity of the freewill fool
I enjoy the endless games of fun and charm.

I hope I die early while I’m still alive or retire on a farm.
In a sour world sugar is currency where in reality there’s honey.
In the evening I still have school
with strangers who remind me of elevator music.
I’m not mean, rudeness stems from no food.
Dirty laundry has no place to fold.

I turn off the player, save the batteries to save my music.
Where’s home? A place with cheese and crackers, toast and honey
are all fine foods. However gum never gets old.

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creative

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Accounting night
The primetime action of century.
Dishonerable dood keeps kicking my chair.
A glance...
The motion continues
Klink
Klak
Thunk
Patience past the atomic thickness,
The Game of Death replays in my head.
Should I do him some Kung Fu harm?
The fool picked the wrong stranger,
but the right calender day.
Fortunate for him
the battle was over,
With a quick strike to the throat
I leaned back, looked at the fool and said
"Dood, can you stop kicking my chair."
With that, the speechless foe was spared.