When I'm down on my knees, and it hurts to believe...

[Profile Update: Oct. 4th, 2007]

still fighting it...
...even though i may hide my scars

*don't keep silent*

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Self-Injury: You are NOT the only one.

March 1 is SI Awareness Day.

You must be smart if you came across this journal...



...or "lucky" that I told you about it.



Note- Every entry will include an LJ-cut and will be "friends only". I won't be adding anymore friends since I don't use this journal often. This journal is my 2nd one-- out of 3. No single person has found all 3 of my journals... without telling me anyway.



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Mental Illness: People Say I'm Crazy.

October 3rd through 9th is Mental Illness Awareness Week. 


Please check out the community: attemptfailed. I'm the mod/ creator/ maintainer.
-The only active LJ community for people who have attempted suicide. 300+ members

Diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Trichtillomania (under the DSM- IV because CSP is not acknowledged as a disorder), and strong Avoidant traits

Meds: Effexor XR twice, Wellbutrin, Zoloft (2nd time- on now), Celexa, Prozac, Citalopram... and some other one. Now also on low dose of Seroquel.

Abused in my past

I can't get close to people because I'm too untrusting and dissociative.

Smoker, Occasional "soft" drug user

Summer of '06- attended 6 week day treatment programme for 8 weeks. It broke me

Single for 4 years

In and out of therapy since I was 10

2 Suicide Attempts

I live in my head and over- intellectualize.

Had to drop out of school and cannot work anymore because it's all finally caught up to me

I keep myself at arms length, purposely and subconsiously.

This is my pseudo- journal... for seeking help that I cannot get in real life.

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