{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb","title":" Fernan","subtitle":"My Love Language is Carne Asada","author":{"name":" Fernan"},"link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"service.feed","type":"application\/x.atom+xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom","title":" Fernan"}}],"updated":"2024-01-09T17:37:45Z","entry":[{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:410862","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/410862.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=410862"}}],"title":"fernanb @ 2024-01-09T09:37:00","published":"2024-01-09T17:37:45Z","updated":"2024-01-09T17:37:45Z","content":"
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I turn forty-three in twenty days. I used to freak out in my thirties because I thought I was way behind, but then I realized some of the dreams I chased then were goals society said I should have. They weren\u2019t actually ones I wanted. So I\u2019ve let those go, and I realized that I am right where I am supposed to be.<\/p>"},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:410424","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/410424.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=410424"}}],"title":"First competition in two years! ","published":"2022-02-27T04:58:18Z","updated":"2022-02-27T04:58:18Z","content":"

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As to what I've been up to the past four years, I've taken up skating. I suck badly, but, I'm allowed to suck badly, right? I'll probably suck tomorrow, but I promise to suck better.


"},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:408403","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/408403.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=408403"}}],"title":"What I've been up to since I last posted...","published":"2014-10-13T17:51:46Z","updated":"2014-10-13T17:51:46Z","content":"Skating. Skating. And More Skating.\"10450133_707368799333692_2395037238290445258_n\""},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:408303","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/408303.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=408303"}}],"title":"I'm back...I think","published":"2014-10-09T22:19:21Z","updated":"2014-10-09T22:19:21Z","content":"I only come on here seldomly now. Every once in a while (I think the last time was five years ago), I'll make some sort of false promise to update, update update! But, of course, every time, the lure of facebook keeps me away. While I'm not promising to update more, I will do my best to update when I can."},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:407920","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/407920.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=407920"}}],"title":"fernanb @ 2013-05-23T09:15:00","published":"2013-05-23T16:15:53Z","updated":"2013-05-23T16:15:53Z","content":"Believe in the sacredness of this body - it is a gift that has been given to us and, must keep it intact. By crying 'mine, mine' and changing this body-tool, we are essentially living in ego and creating a separateness between ourselves and the divinity within us. By transcending societal views of beauty, I believe that I can focus more on my actions. My attitude and thoughts and actions have more value in them than my body because I recognize that this body is just going to become ash in the end, so why fuss about it? When I die, no one is going to remember what I looked like, heck, my kids will forget my voice, and slowly, all physical memory will fade away. However, my impact and legacy will remain: and, by not focusing on the physical beauty, I have time to cultivate those inner virtues and hopefully, focus my life on creating change and progress for this world in any way I can. So, to me, my face isn't important but the smile and the happiness that lie behind the face are. - Balpreet Kaur"},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:407754","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/407754.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=407754"}}],"title":"fernanb @ 2013-04-30T13:05:00","published":"2013-04-30T20:05:48Z","updated":"2013-04-30T20:05:48Z","content":"\"jump\""},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:407468","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/407468.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=407468"}}],"title":"Wow","published":"2013-04-30T20:04:58Z","updated":"2013-04-30T20:04:58Z","content":"I can't believe in a few months, I will have been on LJ for ten years. I mean, I haven't posted much in the last FIVE of those years, but still..."},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:407170","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/407170.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=407170"}}],"title":"Please Donate!","published":"2011-12-21T17:51:53Z","updated":"2011-12-21T17:51:53Z","content":"This is the first time I will be in agreement with anything Paris Hilton is asking for (she has tweeted a plea for donations to her followers). The southern part of the Philippines was hit by a terrible typhoon this past weekend. The death toll has exceeded 1,000, and is continually rising. Please consider making a donation of any amount to the Philippine Red Cross (you can donate to the American Red Cross as well, since they are assisting in relief efforts) http:\/\/www.redcross.org.ph\/donate<\/a>



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I'm sure if dogs can laugh, you're probably laughing at me, bawling in my office like this. I'm such an ugly crier. Thank goodness no one can see me.


Every owner, I'm sure, when the time comes or the time has come, has said this to their dog, but I do mean it when I say that you are the best dog anyone could have asked for (just don't tell your sister, Sophia--she can be such a bitch!). I mean, I thought I was gonna be married off by now, but you've managed to outlast every relationship I've attempted. You've also been there through every triumph, and every heartbreak. Like when I used to compete in a myriad of activities--you (and yes, Sophia) loved me if I finished last...or won. Or, when Dad, Mom, and I were about to lose the house, and fought like crazy just to save it, so you can have a place to live. I love Mom and Dad like crazy, but you (and yes, Sophia) have held us together.


I know many people will find it silly that I'm even writing this to you (first off, you can't even read, pup!), but this is the only way I can get everything out (and you know me, I have to get everything off my chest before I can stop bawling like this). I hope I have given you the life that you deserve. I hope that every moment of your life has been happy, even to the very end. And if I ever yelled unnecessarily (as many of my human friends will tell you), I am terribly, terribly sorry. I'm also sorry that you were unlucky enough to end up with me as your human (hehehe)--I fought for your life, Junior, just as I know you did--I'm sorry we both came up short. Just know that I will gladly pick up your poop one more time, or tell you not to drink from the toilet if it meant I had one more day with you.


So, as I choke back tears because my co-workers might shower me with awws, and I'm sorrys, I must go. Just know that I loved you. And I'd gladly give my life for yours. A thousand times over.


Love,

Fernan


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I started giggling. Who names something the \"White Master\"?"},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:403367","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/403367.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=403367"}}],"title":"Stick It!","published":"2011-03-16T16:14:48Z","updated":"2011-03-16T16:14:48Z","content":"Nothing feels better than sticking your jumps!


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Because I would be a stage dad, Sophia and Junior would be an ice dance team. I would watch every practice..."},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:402301","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/402301.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=402301"}}],"title":"fernanb @ 2011-03-11T09:09:00","published":"2011-03-11T17:09:32Z","updated":"2011-03-11T17:09:32Z","content":"The Red Cross is also accepting monetary donations for relief efforts. You can also find that information on their website, or you can make a $10 donation by texting \"REDCROSS\" to 90999."},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:402106","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/402106.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=402106"}}],"title":"Rereading entries","published":"2011-03-10T19:09:43Z","updated":"2011-03-10T19:09:43Z","content":"Anyone ever re-read entries from the distant past (seven, eight years ago)? It's a harrowing experience."},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:401917","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/401917.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=401917"}}],"title":"Writer's Block: Happy, happy, joy, joy","published":"2011-03-09T17:56:01Z","updated":"2011-03-09T17:56:01Z","category":{"@attributes":{"term":"writer's block"}},"content":"

Three songs-

Drops of Jupiter by Train
You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift (yeah)
Un Sospiro by Franz Liszt"},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fernanb:401520","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/401520.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/fernanb.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=401520"}}],"title":"Fat Tuesday","published":"2011-03-08T18:28:22Z","updated":"2011-03-08T18:49:12Z","content":"Happy Fat Tuesday! From this fatty, to you!
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riksimon: If the Filipino friend of Neal's who spurned you is Fernan, I'd rather we discussed it in person before you talked or mentioned it to him. He broke my heart too, and used me and spat me out like a piece of gum. You're welcome to call me anytime at 858-432-3295 or email me at riksimon@gmail.com. -Rick"}]}