one thing i'm thankful for is the relative lack of problems i have with my immediate family, especially in comparison to most of my friends.
just thought i'd put that out there.
Its interesting when I find out that my friends have problems I can closely empathize with... and then when there are problems I don't quite understand.
I tend to take other people's large problems as... exagerrated, as though they're being melodramatic. God knows I've been like that, though the emotional ups and downs meant that, of course, I did feel like that then. But... I'm disconnected.
There. My main problem.
Its funny how my mother noted it last month. Warned me not to start slacking off at school. "I /know/ you, and I can tell that you're losing focus." Go mom. Because its clear now, that I am. It bothers me, but the problem is that nothing bothers me enough to do something about it.
I've started doing my homework in the mornings. I haven't done my laundry. I haven't written my /three/ presentations yet. I haven't done the dishes. I forgot about the Chinese exam I had today until 11 pm last night, though I did end up studying more for that than I have for the entire course.
That's one thing to make me feel better.
Slacking off makes me stress out at bad points. Those bad points, which start spiraling into depression, are not dealt with, but repressed. Usually by distracting myself with enjoyable (but useless) things.
Vicious cycle.
Bah.
just thought i'd put that out there.
Its interesting when I find out that my friends have problems I can closely empathize with... and then when there are problems I don't quite understand.
I tend to take other people's large problems as... exagerrated, as though they're being melodramatic. God knows I've been like that, though the emotional ups and downs meant that, of course, I did feel like that then. But... I'm disconnected.
There. My main problem.
Its funny how my mother noted it last month. Warned me not to start slacking off at school. "I /know/ you, and I can tell that you're losing focus." Go mom. Because its clear now, that I am. It bothers me, but the problem is that nothing bothers me enough to do something about it.
I've started doing my homework in the mornings. I haven't done my laundry. I haven't written my /three/ presentations yet. I haven't done the dishes. I forgot about the Chinese exam I had today until 11 pm last night, though I did end up studying more for that than I have for the entire course.
That's one thing to make me feel better.
Slacking off makes me stress out at bad points. Those bad points, which start spiraling into depression, are not dealt with, but repressed. Usually by distracting myself with enjoyable (but useless) things.
Vicious cycle.
Bah.