college
i leave at nine am for UF. I think I've packed everything...possibly too much. Dunno. I only have one suitcase for clothes though, at least I'm not bringing my entire wardrobe (my costumes stay behind...pooh). I feel like I'm forgetting something, a very important something. I wont be able to copy all my files in time, i know that already, though i've got a damn good start on it.
i'm so frickin nervous. I'm not good at socializing, but I absolutely cannot stand being left alone in a crowd. supposedly the girl i was talking to online who's in my dorm is moving up tomorrow (today?) as well, but... gah. Hopefully we hit it off. I'm expecting the worst though -- still havent gotten in touch with my room mate, who will probably be someone who cant stand me. Heh. And despite auspicious beginnings, Ashley (the online girl) will probably end up finding me annoying, or vice versa.
I get so clingy when I'm nervous. I want someone i know to be up there with me, so we can explore the campus together, and I wont be completely paranoid and alone. I'm afraid that I'm going to cling like a limpet to any potential friend *cough*ally*cough*, and end up scaring them off. Leaving me alone. Again.
Maybe I should just plan on staying in my dorm until Eric moves up. At least he's used to my clinging, and doesnt seem to get irritated /too/ easily with me... (and doesnt /dis/like me... thats a good start, too. And I havent freaked him out to the point of pushing him away yet -- another good sign!)
Ok, back to hovering over the copying files... and trying to ignore my nerves. At least Cathy-chan and Jessiebear are going with me tomorrow/today/whatever.
i'm so frickin nervous. I'm not good at socializing, but I absolutely cannot stand being left alone in a crowd. supposedly the girl i was talking to online who's in my dorm is moving up tomorrow (today?) as well, but... gah. Hopefully we hit it off. I'm expecting the worst though -- still havent gotten in touch with my room mate, who will probably be someone who cant stand me. Heh. And despite auspicious beginnings, Ashley (the online girl) will probably end up finding me annoying, or vice versa.
I get so clingy when I'm nervous. I want someone i know to be up there with me, so we can explore the campus together, and I wont be completely paranoid and alone. I'm afraid that I'm going to cling like a limpet to any potential friend *cough*ally*cough*, and end up scaring them off. Leaving me alone. Again.
Maybe I should just plan on staying in my dorm until Eric moves up. At least he's used to my clinging, and doesnt seem to get irritated /too/ easily with me... (and doesnt /dis/like me... thats a good start, too. And I havent freaked him out to the point of pushing him away yet -- another good sign!)
Ok, back to hovering over the copying files... and trying to ignore my nerves. At least Cathy-chan and Jessiebear are going with me tomorrow/today/whatever.