Katie Beamish

Haven't posted in a month...but I'll fill you in.

November 2nd - My aunts house burns down. They lost everything. Red Cross gave them ONE NIGHT in a hotel (they KINDLY extended it to TWO....apparently, after you lose everything you've ever owned, two days is PLENTY to get it all back). We went over there. And watched it burn down. What do you say to people who lose everything? I've never thought about it, so I just didn't say anything...I didn't know what to do. It was the single most depressing thing I've ever had to see.

November 6th - Found out that the Settings show I was supposed to go to on the 15th was cancelled. This may not be huge, depressing, horrible news to you....but if it's one of the ONLY things you've got to look forward to - it just sucks. Ten minutes later I find out that The A.K.A.s show in December is also cancelled. Double bummer.

November 8th (ish) - My ferret kept getting sicker and sicker. I have very little money (due to a RETARDED health insurance bill that MAKES NO SENSE) so I had been trying on my own to get her better for a while. Couldn't do it. So I caved in and took her to the vet. He tells me she probably had some sort of infection in her stomach, and that doing x-rays and stuff would just cost a ton of money, and probably say the same thing. So he gave me a bunch of antibiotics to give to her, and hopefully she'd get better. ($70)

November 12th (ish) - Ferret not getting better. Dad brought her back to the vet to see a different vet. He says the only other possible thing it could be is cancer. My 10 MONTH OLD ferret has cancer. Cancer doesn't normally affect ferrets until they're much older. So, once again, my bad luck has a major role in my pathetic, shitty life.

November 15th - My ferret dies.

November 22nd - Trip to Erie, PA to see The A.K.A.s. (This was mostly my fault...but I'd just like to state that I have NEVER gone on a trip that was glitch free...something ALWAYS goes wrong). I'm retarded, and just wore a hoodie (because I *thought* that if I wore a coat or something...I'd pass out at the venue from being too warm). Turns out the venue didn't even have heat. Any of it. So I froze the entire night. Then we go back to the bus station to catch the bus back to Buffalo. And the lobby is closed. So our options were to stand out in the cold, or wait in the car with some strangers. We chilled with strangers for 20 or so minutes. **The trip WAS worth it though! I'm not complaining about the trip in general..just the cold, hah. The A.K.A.s are some of the nicest people I've ever met, and I can't thank them enough for all they did for me that day. They're way too amazing for words. I lovelovelovelove them! March '09 is too far away. :'(

November 26th - At work we had this little Thanksgiving lunch thing...and I was waiting for the other people to go get their food first (Weren't you taught to let the elders go first? I may not talk much, but I still have manners...) and some BITCH old lady goes "KATIE! Grab a plate, no one is going to do it for you!". I wanted to punch her in the face. SO FUCKING BAD. I'm sorry I was trying to be nice, and let you go first. I'm sure if I had just pushed in front of you and grabbed some food like a fucking asshole, you would have had something to say about that too. Fucking bitch. PS - the food sucked.

So that was my month. I hate November.

 

 

 

After seeing a few bulletins on myspace about this, I've decided to voice my opinion on this as well.  There's a certain person on my friends' list who posts bulletins about how he's for McCain, which I am fine with. Everyone has their own opinion. What I'm not fine with, is the constant bashing of Obama.

Here's part of a bulletin he posted recently:

"Jessica Hughes of Lufkin, Texas, former Marine, mother of three, answered her cell phone in the car, coming home from the emergency room. Her 9-year-old had suffered a mild concussion, but was OK.
The caller was a female Obama volunteer who asked if Jessica would support Obama for president.
Jessica replied, 'No, I don't support him. Your guy is a socialist who voted four times in the state Senate to let little babies die in hospital closets; I think you should find something better to do with your time.' Then Jessica hung up.

The next day, a man and a woman in suits showed up at the door of her home, identifying themselves as members of the Secret Service.

The Secret Service agents stated that the Obama campaign had complained of a death threat. They had quoted Jessica as saying, 'I will never support Obama, and he will wind up dead on a hospital floor.'Jessica's husband had heard Jessica's side of the original phone call and verified the actual quote. To which the female agent replied, 'Oh? Well why would she (the Obama volunteer) make that up ?'----Jessica replied that the Obama volunteer was probably unhappy about what Jessica had said about her candidate.
The female agent then said 'That's right, you were rude!'
The male agent then displayed a file with Jessica's full name prominently printed on it and asked her how she felt about Obama. At this point, the former Marine told the agent 'in no uncertain terms' (as she later recounted) that this was America and that the last time she checked, she was allowed to think whatever she wanted without being questioned by the Secret Service.
And was being 'rude' a federal crime now too?

The agents then admitted they had no tape of the conversation, just the quote from the Obama campaign.

Responding to Jessica's questions, the agents would not identify themselves by name, nor reveal the name of the Obama volunteer who had made the complaint. The agents did indicate that Jessica was not in a court of law yet, and that they were trying to not embarrass her 'by going to all her family and neighbors'.

To these implied threats, Jessica invited the agents to speak to whomever they wanted, and stated she would happily go to court since she had done nothing wrong.

Jessica asked the agents, 'Look, someone calls me unsolicited on my cell phone to ask me to support their candidate, and I can't tell them why I don't?'

The Secret Service left Jessica that day, but she could not get the 'visit' out of her mind.

Jessica wrote later, 'The fact that the volunteer lied, the fact that the Secret Service came to my house to question me about my thoughts and feelings and threaten to embarrass me to my neighbors and go to court if I didn't cooperate is not the tragedy here. 'Because that girl on the phone doesn't have the pull to send the Secret Service to my home.


Someone high in the ranks of a campaign working for a man who may be the next President of the United States of America felt comfortable bringing the force of the Federal Government to bear on a private citizen on nothing but the word of a partisan volunteer.

Taken together with the intimidation campaign against WGN Radio because it aired an interview about the Obama-Ayers connection, the use of local criminal prosecutors to intimidate TV stations in certain states to not run ads critical of Obama, and the use of race to rally black voters and shame white voters, the Obama campaign's M.O. in Jessica's case is a warning.

The pattern is unmistakable. The drumbeat of jackboots echoes now faintly, but persistently, in the fall breeze."

Seriously?
How does any of that entire bulletin have to do with how OBAMA would run the presidential office?
If any of that is even TRUE, it has nothing to do with Obama. It's not Obamas' fault that the Secret Service came to some chicks' house.

This asshole on my friends' list has also posted bulletins with all this religious propaganda about the election.
POLITICS AND RELIGION should not be mixed.
Stop trying to force Christianity down peoples' throats. It's disgusting.

Obama isn't perfect.
He's a hell of a lot better than what we have now.
And he'll be a hell of a lot better than McCain.
You'll see.
:o)






 

 

Warped Tour Countdown?: 82 days.
Sooooooooo slow.

Cincinnati didn't happen, and it doesn't look like Toronto will either.
I don't want to sound selfish, but I get angry when no one wants to do anything or go anywhere.
I wish I had friends that were as into music as I was, and didn't view Toronto as being far away.
It's only 2 hours..
And I know gas is expensive [and getting more and more expensive], but if we get a few people to go that would chip in, it wouldn't be that bad. 

I have a lack of friends. 
I need new ones.
But I don't know where to get them from.
=/
And LOSERS are ATTRACTED to me like you would not believe.
^^I'm pretty sure that runs in my family, btw.

My mom just got out of the hospital for her leg.
They took her off the chemo drug.
But they have nothing else for her to go on.
Which sucks.

The day she went into the hospital was the Streelight Manifesto show [April 29th].
My dad thought that I would stay home that night, but I asked to go to the show.
On the way there he said "You know, I wish your mom and I were as important to you as these shows".
WTF was that supposed to mean?

I feel like everybody is IGNORING the way I feel right now.


My mom has cancer, and all her doctors gave up on her...
My dad is fucking psychotic, he yells at everything, and he makes me feel extremely uncomfortable, I don't even TALK to him half the time because either he can't hear me, or he just fucking yells at me.
My aunt thinks I'm lazy, and that drives me absolutely crazy.
I don't have enough money to go to college.
I don't have a license, or a car.
I have NO FRIENDS. Don't tell me you're my friend if I haven't seen you in almost A YEAR!
That's not friends..that's aquaintances. And yes, there is a difference.
I have NOBODY, other than a few family members. And I'm not even CLOSE to kidding about that.
What do I have left? Shows..
That's it, that's ALL. 
So you asking me to give up a show, is like asking me to give up a friend. 
That's exactly how I feel. 
I don't want to sound selfish but..
My dad has cigarettes to calm him down, 
My mom has medications to calm her down,
Everybody has SOMETHING.
I have shows....



Why is that so hard to understand?


My aunt told me today that I'm "insensitive to everybody else", and all I care about is myself.
That's BULLSHIT. 
I care TOO MUCH about everybody else.
I risk my own happiness for everybody else on a daily basis.
I'm extremely fucking pissed right now.

Warped Tour [AKA: Best day of my LIFE] : 102 days away.
Time is going by so slow. 
AND Jet Lag Gemini won't be playing the Buffalo Warped date.
Which sucks, but I still have Madina Lake, The A.K.A's, Family Force 5, and a few others to look forward to.
I'm so excited. =D

I'm almost 20.
How insanely scary is that?
I won't be a teenager anymore...I guess I'm expecting something major to happen, but I know it'll be like every other birthday [minus the fact I'll be exhausted from all the shows I'm going to that week.]

Speaking of shows, I'm not sure if Cincinnati to see Madina Lake is happening or not.
I texted people, but nobody texted me back, so it's up in the air.
Sucks, cause I was stoked about seeing some people out there.

Toronto on May 5th, though?
Maybe!
I'll miss those boys way too much, and knowing that after this show, I won't be able to see them for 3 months kinda worries me. 
I don't know if I can last that long! Haha.
Matthew told me that when they come here on Thursday, they're gonna sign a birthday card for my mom.
Don't you see why I love them so much?

 I HATE when bands cancel shows.
But I still love Jet Lag Gemini.
Even though they just ruined my week. =[

They're coming back on April 28th, which is the day after my bday so I'm pretty stoked about that.
Loooooooooooooooooooook how busy I'll be that week though:

April 25th - Settings.
April 26th - We The Kings.
April 27th - The AP Tour.
April 28th - Jet Lag Gemini.
April 29th - Streetlight Manifesto.
May 1st - Rookie Of The Year.

I only need a show on April 30th to make a full week of shows!
xD

I'm gonna be completely exhausted though.
Cause I'll still be working that week, too.
=/

Ever since the Powerspace show, I've been listening to them non stop.
It's kinda crazy, I LOVE them.
I saw them back in November too, but the show on March 27th was amazing.
They really were a lot better this time around.
Plus, they're great guys, and are SUPER funny. 



Can you look at that picture and not laugh? Hahah.

 So,
Please don't get mad at me if I don't ditch a show I've been planning on going to for months, and come see your band [that I've never even LISTENED to] at a venue that's 40 minutes away from my house. 
No, I don't care if it's your first show.
I don't care if we're "friends".
I find it funny that the only time you ever talk to me is when you want me to come see your band play.
If you're band was that good, you'd have more than one show a month.

OKKKKKKKKK.
So, in other news. 
I see these boys in 4 [almost 3!] days...


ANDDD. 
These dorks in 17 [almost 16!] days...

BAHAHAA. 
I think the best part of this whole picture is Matthew's shorts.
LMAO.






























Yes, this is really all I ever talk about.
=)

That Warped Tour is 240897509823904 days away.
All my favorite bands [with the exception of 2] are gonna be there, and I'm SO excited to see them all. Together. On the same day.

MADINA LAKE!
The A.K.A's!
Jet Lag Gemini!
Family Force 5!

Amazinggg. 
I CANNOT wait for July 24th, 2008.

In other news, I got a new job. 
With my aunt. 
It's not that bad and it pays $9/hr. 
Which isn't that good, but it's good enough for me.
=D
It lets me get to all the shows I want to get to. 

Speaking of shows, you can catch me at these ones...
4/4 - JET LAG GEMINI!
4/9 - The Dreaming.
4/13 - The Dear Hunter.
4/17 - MADINA LAKE!
4/19 - MADINA LAKE [MAYBE]
4/25 - SETTINGS!
4/26 - We The Kings.
4/27 - The AP Tour.
4/29 - Streetlight Manifesto.

Yeah, I bailed on that Mindless Self Indulgence thing. 
Mostly because it cost me so much to go to Cleveland a few weeks ago.

And OHH YEAH, I didn't post about that. =]
I had the BEST time ever.
Here's how it happened.

We got to the train station at 11pm. Why? I have no idea. 
The train wasn't supposed to leave until midnight, but my dad said he talked to the people there and they told him to get there an hour early. 
So we sat there. For an hour. Doing nothing.
But!
I found out that I could get on myspace from my phone. And that saved me from boredom MANY times throughout the trip.

The train FINALLY got there at 12:35!
Yeah, they were 35 minutes LATE! So we actually had to wait an hour and a half.
Then the train stopped a billion more times on the way to Cleveland to let "slow moving freight trains" pass us. 
So we got to Cleveland at 5:00AM.
We were supposed to get there at 3:30AM.
Nice one, Amtrak.

People were fucking in the rooms when we got there too. It was disturbing.
And I'm super happy that my dad can't hear. 
Or that would have been EXTREMELY awkward.
We went to bed at 5:30-6:00ish.
And got up at 9:30AM.
We went to that house where they shot part of the movie "A Christmas Story". 
It was pretty cool, cause we didn't know that there was scheduled times for the tour of the house, and we just walked in. 
We were the only ones there, so it was pretty cool. =D
That Lifebuoy soap smells HORRIBLE, though.

After that we went to Tower City.
It's this mall type thing in downtown Cleveland.
It was alright, but I'll stand by the fact that I've never seen a better mall than the Galleria Mall in Buffalo.
Then we went back to the hotel room and just sat around for a few hours.
It was super boring, and I got sick [literally] from waiting around. I think part of that had to do with the gross, disgusting McDonalds food my dad made me consume at Tower City though. 
I really hate McDonalds. And I haven't eaten that shit in almost a year.
So I don't think my body was used to it, haha.
I was on myspace from my phone during this, but no one seemed to want to talk to me, so I was still pretty bored. 

THENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN, 
We left [on foot, cause we were broke from all the taxi rides] to find The Agora.
Well actually, we wanted to go to Subway for dinner first, but it closed at 4pm [it was 4:30]!
What kind of SUBWAY closes at 4pm!? 
So we just decided to try to find The Agora, and maybe we'd see something along the way.
Well, it was a good thing Subway was closed, cause we needed that extra time to find The Agora.
We got lost. In Cleveland. On foot. 
It SUCKED.
By the time we FINALLY found The Agora, my jeans were SOAKED up to my knee. 
We got there at 5:30 though, and the doors opened at 6:30.
We were probably close to 20-30th person in line.

I got 3rd person back from the stage! But by the time Madina Lake came on, I was between the first, and second row!
I was so happy. =D
I missed those dudes so much, I didn't see them for almost four months.
=/
They were absolutely amazing. If you need to know why I love them so much - go to a show, talk to them afterwards. I can promise you, you won't regret it. 
After their set, I left to go find them [I didn't even watch Aiden, haha].
I found Nathan first:
Me: "Here I got this for you!"
Nathan: "Gifts?! For me?"
*Hugs* =D
Me: "Can you take a picture with him?" [My dad - ohhhh yeah, I DID ask him, haha.]
Nathan: "Sure!"

Hahahhaah. Yeah, it's amazing. =D

Then, I found Matthew.
I always make myself look like an idiot in front of him. =/
I was talking to my dad, and he tapped me on the shoulder, I turned around, and he had his arms open to give me a hug.
But instead, I pretty much shoved the stuffed penguin I got for him in his hands. 
THEN, I hugged him. He gives amazing hugs, honestly. =]

Then, I saw Dan. 
And I love Dan so much, he's so awesome, haha.
I gave him his gifts, and he's like:
"Wait...what does this do?"
Me: *Just stares at him...* "What?" [It was hard to hear him, cause Aiden was playing while we were talking]
Dan: "Ohhhh, it GROWS! I was trying to figure out what it did..Thank you!"
Me: *smiles*
Dan: "Oh, and THIS! *holds up the other thing I got him* THIS is going on the merch table, TONIGHT!"
**Hugs** =D

So, I was waiting for Mateo to come out, and I was watching Aiden:
WiL [lead singer]: "Ok, here's what I want you guys to do...everybody get down, and when the music starts, you all are gonna jump back up, okay?"
**Everybody just stares at him...a few people get down...**
WiL: "Alright, I want EVERYBODY to get down...to the ground."
**More stares...a few more people get down**
WiL: "EVERYBODY GET THE FUCK DOWN!!!"
Haha, they're pretty good live. 

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Crystal and Syy talking to Dan..
Then I saw Dan looking at me. 
Then he pointed to me, and called me over using his finger. [You get what I mean, right?]
And let me tell you...when a dude like Dan Torelli motions to you like that, you do NOT ignore it. =D
So I go over..
Dan: YOU'RE New York?! What are you doing out here?"
[He was referring to the Madina Lake New York myspace I started for them.]
**I just shrug my shoulders, and smile**
Dan: "Figured you'd make the drive out here? That's cool. Are you having fun?"
**I nod my head** GODDD, I'm SUCH AN IDIOT! Why can't I talk?! Haha.
**More hugggsss**
=D

Then, Matthew walked past us again.
He stopped, looked at me, came over, and hugged me again.
Matthew: "Thank you so much for the penguin, I love him!"
Me: "No problem. =]"
Matthew: "Are you having a good weekend?/Are you excited for this weekend?" [I couldn't really hear what he said, but he said one of the two.]
Me: "Yeah."
Matthew: "That's good, me too!"

Ah, Matthew is the sweetest out of all of them. Seriously, that guy could cheer ANYONE up.

FINALLY, Mateo came out. 
I was the FIRST one to talk to him. =]
I gave him the shirt I got him. 
Mateo: *Gasps* "For ME?!"
Me: "Yep!"
**Hugggs**
**He opens it up, laughs, and hugs me again** [It said "I love cheesy fries", btw. You probably wouldn't understand, haha.]
Mateo: "Thank you SO much!"

I just wanna say, that there is NOBODY in this world, that I'd rather hug than the boys of Madina Lake. They are the MOST AMAZING huggers in the world. End of story.

So by this time, my dad was pretty pissed, cause I was taking too long, and we were both running on four hours of sleep.
So we left.
Nothing else eventful happened for the rest of the trip, really. [Minus the people in the OTHER room next to our, fucking. For at least an hour.]
Once again, EXTREMELY grateful that my dad can't hear anything. Haha.
On the way back from Cleveland, our train got stopped in Erie, PA cause border patrol came on, and had to ask EVERY person if they were a U.S. Citizen.
They ended up taking people off the train though..so I'm assuming some people had to say no.
WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU SAY NO? They weren't asking for proof, or ANYTHING, so why would you say no? Just lie, and say yes, and you woulda been on your way, you stupid idiots.
=]

The show on Sunday in Buffalo wasn't as eventful as the show in Cleveland.
Minus the part where Matthew was walking around with a pipe in his mouth.

Some kid: "Why do you have a pipe in your mouth?"
Matthew: "I don't know....there's nothing in it. I look...I don't know, it gives me time to think."

WTF does that even mean? Haha. Matthew had just gotten over a cold though, so maybe he was hopped up on the cold medicine, haha.
Dan was sick that night, though, and I didn't get to talk to him. 
Which made me super sad, cause I love that dude so much, it's unreal. 
He actually DID put the gift I gave him on the merch table. 
I was SO excited. 
That boy makes me pretty happy.
=]
Leaving them that night, didn't suck as bad as it did before, cause I knew I'd see them again in a month. 
[17 days left!!]
I'm so excited to see them again.
They make me happy, and I love them **so** super much.

I'm thinking of going to Cincinatti to see them too.
So the Buffalo show is on the 17th, and the Cincinatti show is on the 19th.
And the only way I could go, is if I could convince my mom that Cincinnati is a great place to go for a 61st birthday party. =D
Any advice?



 

Oh, and haha.
That job? I never went back after the first day.




Lots of reasons, but mostly because the manager is a FUCKING DOUCHEBAG.
Thanks a lot for setting me back 5 years, asshole.



Cleveland in 11 [basically 10] days.
That should make me feel better. =]

 

No one reads this anymore, so everything I post is for me, and not you. =]

These are the bands I've seen live:

-Monster Squad.***
-The Casualties.*
-Wednesday Night Heroes.*
-A Global Threat.*
-Lower Class Brats.**
-Leftover Crack.*
-Clit 45.*
-The Adicts.*
-The Dickies.*
-Cropknox.*
-The Krays.*
-Switch 86.[Lost count...]
-The Fight.*
-Last Conservative.*
-The Briefs.*
-Horrorpops.*
-Suburban Chaos.*
-The Havoc.*
-The City Creeps.[Lost count...]
-Stockyard Stoics.*
-Complete Control.*
-Boss Tribal.[Lost count...]
-A Last Hope.*
-My Chemical Romance.*
-Taking Back Sunday.*
-Mindless Self Indulgence.*
-Madina Lake.**
-HIM.*
-Linkin Park.*
-Street Drum Corps.*
-The Unseen.*
-Definitions.*
-Shot Me A Mallard.*
-Guns Of Camden.*
-Bangerang.[Lost count..]
-Ralphies Revolt.*
-Styles Of Beyond.*
-Circa Survive.*
-Dear & The Headlights.*
-Ours.*
-Fear Before The March Of Flames.*
-The Disease.[Lost count..]
-The Antics.*
-Ill Scarlett.*
-The A.K.A's.*
-Whole Wheat Bread.*
-Big D & The Kids Table.*
-Full Proof.*
-The Clockers.*
-The Rabies.*
-Maylene & The Sons Of Disaster.*
-Poison The Well.*
-Every Time I Die.*
-UnderOATH.*
-Mandy K.**
-Reign Of Kindo.*
-The Higher.**
-This Providence.*
-Daphne Loves Derby.*
-The Starting Line.*
-Family Force 5.*
-Jonezetta.*
-Letterset.*
-We The Kings.*
-Powerspace.*
-Mayday Parade.*
-The Boy And His Machine.**
-Sailing To Rome.***
-Settings.**
-Remember Tomorrow.**
-I Am Fiction.*
-For What Its Worth.**
-Fighting For First.*
-Vega.*
-Kandid Theory.*
-Rookie Of The Year.*
-The Red October.*
-City Under Seige.**
-Goodbye Houston.*
-Permanent Me.*
-Jet Lag Gemini.*
-Red Light Green Light.*
-Lady Radiator.*
-There For Tomorrow.*
-North Park Avenue.*
-The Morning Of.*
-Ice Nine Kills.*
-Embrace Your Faith*
-Left To Fall.*
-The Starting Line.*
-The Devil Wears Prada.*
-It Dies Today.*
-Affront The Riot.*

 

Next Show:
Madina Lake.
Aiden.
Farewell To Freeway.
My American Heart.

Last show: February 19th.