Marscon

So, finally going somewhere this weekend and seeing.....you kjnow. People. In some sort of a social situation. Gah.

I haven't really been much of anywhere since March...of last year, that is. This is my first con, ex will be there, he'll have already talked to all of the people I want to see there, who were his friends first. I'm not sure what he's told them - if he's lied, temporized, stonewalled or told the truth. I'm worried.

But....I am cautiously looking forward to it. I did buy myself some cute clothes, so, you know. That's good. I'm trying to de-emphasize my bigness and re-emphasize my boobness.

And, you know, after (dear god) nearly a year, I feel like I might actually be beginning to even want to have physical intimacy again. Not that, you know, my personal feelings are what I actually even need to worry about at this point. It's, you know, getting to the point where someone else's personal feelings on that subject would ever come into play again.