comablackx666

so im anika
im from ann arbor, michigan
i've been cutting since grade seven, i am now in grade nine
i cut myself no matter how i feel, i burn myself, i have other people phsyically hurt me
and i have crazy hardcore sex too.
right now i have this boyfriend who is sweet and kind and nice and he wont do any of these things ot me and i found a guy who would and now i am guilty. hence, more cutting
wtf.

x_artofbreaking

I've seen him,
I've seen his dark face,
his crimson eyes,
his blood-stained robe.
I was a victim to his desires,
I wanted the same as he.
He wanted to take my life,
as did I.
His sickle, sharp and menacing,
tore through me,
my soul,
my heart,
my mind.
He tried to take all that he could.
Then, it was everything.
I was too weak to fight.
I was vulnerable.
He knew he would win.
I had forsaken all hope,
there was no chance for me.
His gaze was so strong,
so intent on burning me,
defeating me.

As I continued to give in,
caving in to the dark,
I saw a light.
And, there, I saw you,
standing tall and strong.
You held me
and you fought him back,
my protector.
He tried and he tried,
he cried and he cried,
but he could not fight you.
Your strength greatly surpassed his.
Your affection,
your kindness,
your love
all overpowered him
He could not fight you,
my savior,
my hero.
You took me away
from all that was dark,
from all that was evil.
You showed me a life
I never knew I could have.

But now, my love,
you've been stolen from me,
and I can't bring you back.
No matter how hard I try,
no matter how hard I cry,
I can't bring you back.
And now I'm starting
to see those eyes again,
those violent, crimson eyes,
and that grim, blood-stained robe,
that sharp, menacing sickle.
And once more, I am afraid.
I am afraid
that I can't fight back.
I can't win without you,
my protector.
I can't make it without you
to save me
from those crimson eyes.

bit_me_biatch

Name: kelli
Age: 22
Location: brockton,ma
Who Referred You: no one
Your Interests & Experiences With Blood: i've been a cuter since i was 14 years old
Anything Else You Would Like To Add: i've never worte anything in this before so i guess i just wanted to know how somepoepl cope with cuting and tryin not to do it cus i had arelaps about a month ago and i try realy hard not to let things get that bad again so any one with any tips please let me know

differentlyodd

what am i to do when my face is wet from tears
and my arm covered in blood
how should i feel when u tell me your leaving
you say things will be ok when i know they wont
you said you'd never leave me and now you r
how do u fix a broken heart that wants to die
how can u say u love me when ur not here to wipe my tears away
i cry on the inside n out bc i cant hold it in anymore
once again that dark place is calling
how can u blame me for wanting to end my pain
u know how it feels to have that peace
i want to go to sleep, a everlasting sleep
and so i will, take the bottle n lay down
in thoughts of u i will drown
worst of all they wont know why but u will
for everything i love you and say goodbye

funkaspunka

Name:hannah
Age:22
Location:wellington, new zealand
Who Referred You:found it while trawling
Your Interests & Experiences With Blood:cutty cutty cutty. first did it when i was about 16, but it has become a little more rampant in the last 12 months. i think about it a lot. i love doing it and i hate doing it. especially like the sensation i get when i see my blood on my pale skin. i never cut very deep, but deep enough to scar i guess.
Anything Else You Would Like To Add:i suck with computers, so i'm still learning how to do all this LJ stuff, so bear with me if i'm a bit slow on the uptake.