Let’s just cut to it. I’m bipolar and also anti-psychiatry, and it’s not as contradictory as it sounds. I actually fell into anti-psychiatry before I fell into my diagnosis. My dive into anti-psychiatry started after my dad’s needless death at the hands of the psych system. I started to question its efficacy, its usefulness, its ethics. How come it’s okay to lock someone up when they haven’t committed a crime? Is that supposed to make a sad, angry person less sad and angry? It hasn’t sat right with me for many years. It was only a year or so ago that I got the language for this, and fleshed my view out. For an overview, my view is this: You can’t ever prove anything scientific in the psych world. My A-Level Psychology teacher used to phrase this as “you can’t test everyone who has ever lived, is living, or will ever live, so you can never prove anything.” It literally isn’t possible, yet we act like it is. Why do we act like we have a concrete, scientific answer (like low serotonin ca...
I don’t know what I’m doing here. I don’t know what I hope to achieve by talking about this again. I think I just hope it brings me some sort of peace of mind, or maybe, this time, I’ll have some sort of revelation and my grief will be fixed. Maybe all the pieces will finally slot together. I doubt it. There’s no nice way to say this. You can try – passed away, left this life, whatever. No. None of it conveys what I want it to. My dad killed himself when I was sixteen. Died by suicide, whatever, that works, too. It was February 20th 2020, which was a Thursday during the half-term holidays. I’ve talked about the day it happened before. What’s the point in doing it again? All it does for me is remind me how it felt to feel my life shatter when the police came knocking. It’s strange, because it wasn’t like I wanted my dad in my life. I just didn’t expect this to be the way he left it. That’s a lie. It was expected. My dad was ill for a good part of my life. I don’t like the psychiat...