Feeling Into My Fifties: Befriending Depression at Midlife
As I step into my 50th year, I’m focused on integrating the woman I used to be with the woman I’m becoming.

Krista Kellogg has lived with anxiety and depression for more than 20 years. She is dedicated to recovery, healing, and shining a light on mental health issues in service to others on a similar path. She is a writer, marketer, and wellness coach in Miami.
As I step into my 50th year, I’m focused on integrating the woman I used to be with the woman I’m becoming.
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