The GRAB BAG thing is increasingly stressing me out. I wish I could just get my graphics and get the hell out of there. I got stuff from 6 people, I am waiting on 14 more people, 3 people I am not requesting from, and one person is not even offering what she promised. Then there are three more who haven't let us request from them yet, I hope they do soon. I know it was only $5 I spent to help someone out, but watch me be $5 short on the rent next month. Just my luck.


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I am not leaving my stocking link in other people's LJ's like some as asking us to. I'd feel like I am begging for pressies. If you want to make me something or just give me wishes, my tag is in the sidebar of the comm. I will be making something for all blinkie friends with a stocking and the people who request from me often. The people who skipped me on Halloween and the 4 people who never picked up my gift to them can bite my candy cane. :D

And OMG don't leave me friggin coupons! I am still waiting for Halloween stuff from all three people who left me coupons. :(

From fridayfiver:

1. Tell us something you love:
I love all my friends.

2. Tell us something you know to be true:
My true friends will always be there.

3. Tell us about someone new in your life:
My newest friends are on YouTube. Beth, Gary, Doug, Darla, Justin, Leia, Andy, Curt, Lori, Geir, Tammy, Peggy, Chris, Jim, etc. I adore them all and they are part of my everyday life now.

4. Who can you never please?
Cam. All he does is bitch lately. I wish diabetes didn't cause so many damn mood swings.

5. Friday fill-in: You know I am allergic to purfumes, colognes, candles, and soaps? My own mother doesn't.


From thefridayfive:

1. When did you "lose your innocence"?
Since it is in quotations I assume they mean virginity. 23. But my innocence was long gone by then.

2. Would you say you have an accent?
You betcha.

3. Do you hope to be married (married again if divorced)?
No. The only reason I want to get married is to get silverware from my parents. My 4 siblings have been married 6 times and they all have expensive silverware. I have 600 plastic spoons from Sam's Club.

4. If you could take one technology to a desert island (the obvious satellite phone excluded), what would it be?
My digital camera. Imagine the gorgeous pictures.

5. What is the last activity you bought a ticket for?
The State Fair in August. Wow, I haven't even been to a movie since then.

Next week they will probably be talking snow...

Tomorrow Shawn wants me to go with him to the art gallery where he will have another photo in a show. And then go for pizza where his best friend works and I finally get to meet him! And that means everything to me.

I didn't get to meet a single friend of Will's or Bill's, and Sean didn't want anyone, even our mutual friends, to know we were dating. (And yes I know all three still read my LJ, I see you there, boys!) But I am sick of being a fucking secret! Never again!

Shawn's new MySpace pic! LOL!



Shawn is the first ever boyfriend to get his own LJ tag, because I plan to be talking about him a lot!

My kidneys hate me!

And there were too many flags today NOT at half staff. Pissed me off.

Dammit, I just realized I won't get to see NASCAR again until September!

I have to go the entire summer without racing???

I hate being poor and having no cable. (For gods sake no one buy me cable, LOL!)

And I dropped to 6th place (out of 16) in our Fantasy Nascar game. Crap!

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Paolo Nutini is coming here in September and I didn't know tickets went on sale yesterday and Ticketmaster says "request not available" so the show must already be sold out.

*cries*

You can tell summer is just on the horizon... The city bus smells like dried urine, man sweat, and crotch.

Well hell. I just went to heat up my KFC and my microwave went BOOM!!!

I knew it was coming. It was over 15 years old and had a long happy life.

Dammit! I need $589.18 like now to get my plane tickets to LA and I only have $322 left on my credit card!

I need my W2 so I can do my taxes online ASAP! They are supposed to have that in my hand by 1-31! :(


In other news, I had a surreal moment in the afterschool program today as my kindergartners joined hands and surrounded me and sang to me how nice and beautiful and great I am. I assume they are learning how to compliment each other this week in school. I wish I had my camera.

I only had 12 monkeys today and we learned all about MONKEYS!


And I seem to have misplaced my friends. Everyone has way more valentines than me, I require more. It's free and will make me happy. :D

Clicky thing:

I can't believe it's already midnight and I have to get up and go back to work in 6 hours...

Now I have to look forward to spring break, the first week of April...

Then, of course, Celebration 4 in Los Angeles over Memorial weekend.

I need to do something to make money.

I am working three jobs and I am gone from my home for 57 hours a week. I only get paid for 41 of those hours. The rest of the time is spent napping on the city bus or standing in the Great Minnesota frozeness. And because we had three days unpaid in October, my last check's gross rounded out to only $259 a week. WTF!

I couldn't survive without my credit card, which is already racked up to $1700. I have exactly enough money to pay the bills this month, but insulin and my meds and bus cards and groceries and Cam's cell phone will all have to go on the credit card.

It's not like I am not willing to work. I have even looked into babysitting. People only want teenagers to babysit their kids these days. I wish I had something to sell. So many people here have online businesses. It's just too hard for me to get to a post office to mail anything.

Oh well, life goes on and someone has to struggle so the higher ups can be higher up. Right?

No lunch for me today. Bill had to cancel because his daughter is sick. I don't feel like gumming a school lunch hamburger. I had to eat dinner last night with my front teeth, it took me an hour. And it doesn't help that the hallway smells like apple cider and cookies.

Boy am I a mess. And it's my own fault.

Back to work.

No fair, everyone has babies except me.

Stupid Vikings game.

My damn back hurts and I slept all day.

40 billion people are all trying to wash clothes with 7 washers and 5 dryers. They are actually standing in a line and were pissed when I unloaded one washer and loaded it right back up with more clothes. Getting a dryer tonight is going to be a bitch, I might have to camp in there because the door locks at 9:30. At least the laundry room is only across the hall from me and not a block away like it is for some poor tennants.

Still laughing at girlpirate's Crackhead Neighbor Lady.

Still thinking about out_of_mana and finding_her.

Still missing mr_loki and deneren and porthas_duex.

Still thankful to my heroes cookiegirlie and flo_fett and astro4ever for offering sharing their goodies to help me out.

Still loving gryphonne. Poor sweetie has a bad cold.

Still looking forward to seeing misrtyl and tovors_mind in Florida.

Still wishing I could go to Texas and see taxchick again.

Still wishing I had a Mountain Dew.

Still waiting for info on Celebration 4 and I am going to drown an Ewok if passes don't go on sale soon. At least I got my SW Insider #90 yesterday to keep me happy.

Fucking diabetes classes are going to cost me $300 and I would have to miss work.

Not happening.

I have to find a free One-touch meter, because strips are going to cost $20 a box. Better than the normal $80.

I am already paying $60 a month for my other meds.

I have to buy Cam insulin soon, that's $300 right there.

I couldn't work more hours this week because I am so sick.

Weeeeeeeeee!

good -
tuna noodle hot dish
lotion on my feet
school clothes
walks with Bill
quarters for laundry
knowing mr_loki is ok
an almost complete blinkie journal
watermelon Extra gum
pineapples and cottage cheese
horse_head's Woody Woodpecker
money in the bank
crickets
half price school pictures
my pretty new icon by julione

bad -
kidneys functioning at 80%
kidney doctors who can't answer my questions
teenagers who try to scare you
sleeping weird hours
waiting for Hyperspace
skankwad ex-co-worker moved in (at least it's not next door)
triglycerides
can't get that herritage picture site to work

ugly -
toothache
Jon-Benet Ramsey's killer is a freakin school teacher
20 days left of vacation and nothing to do
desperately needing a hug

I made steak and baked potatoes for dinner: Summer style.

I baked the potatoes in the microwave and fried the steak so the house never heated up. Great meal.

My teeth hate meat. It doesn't matter what kind of meat. It doesn't matter how hard, soft, chewy, melt-in-your-mouth the meat is, it just hurts my teeth. It's like how ice cream or hot coffee hurt other people's teeth, my teeth are sensitive to meat.

This is a relatively new thing. Like since I turned 40. I brush the hell out of my teeth and floss them and they still hurt hours later. Like now.

My teeth hate meat and I hate my nasty yellow teeth. But since I am not a crack whore I won't be needing dentures anytime soon. I am stuck with them.

It's a full moon isn't it?

I just spent an hour and a half standing outside with 7 fire trucks and 400 Somalians because there were chemicals in the building.

Cops blocked all the enterances to the parking lots, but the firemen just stood around and did nothing to clear out the building. You could see kids at every window and no one telling them to get out. The firemen were jerks, they yelled at us to get out as we were walking out.

I never smelled a thing in the building, but the chemicals were thick on the people being treated by the medics.

AWESOME: I think Cam finally got insurance after two and a half long years. I say "think" because they sent me a card with his name on it, but there is tons of paperwork yet to fill out. And something says I have to pay 3 grand on his bills.

Crap: My computer has a spyware virus and no matter what I do I can't stop the pop-ups. I have tried all the spyware programs, the delete things temporarily, and they are back seconds later.

AWESOME: Someone I don't even know bought me another year of LJ, I assume because I made her a couple pretty blinkies. You are stuck with me for 2 and a half more years.

Oh Well: I spilled root beer all over me and my keyboard and my photo paper.

YAY: Tomorrow is my niece Caity's graduation party. My dad is going to come pick us up at 1pm.

Crap: I tried to get a ride up there with my brother, but he said he's not going because my niece Sophie has the foot and mouth virus.

AWESOME: Found all Cam's pictures from ultrasound through 9th grade.

Oh Well: Except 4th grade, no idea where that went.

YAY: I LOVE playing Super Collapse 3

Oh Well: But my trial ran out and there are no cracks for it.

Oh Well: I am outta Dew.

Oh Well: My printer ran out of ink.

Crap: I ran outta happy things. I'll find more tomorrow.

Something seriously messed up is going on in my apartment...

My smoke detector is beeping
I went to push the button and noticed the hall light didn't work.
I went to get a bulb, and the living room light doesn't work, either.
I tried all the other lights and they are fine.
So I started flipping circuit breakers.
Nothing changed.
I went to turn on bedroom air contitioner to see if it was working, it turns on, nothing happens.
I plugged in the living room air conditioner and it makes a noise, but won't do anything.

It's 90F outside. Maybe it's neighborhood related. I hope so, I don't want to have to move because the whole place needs to be rewired.

And now we are hot...

And that damn thing is still beeping...


EDIT: WHEW!!! It's not just me. 35 minutes later the caretaker knocked on the door and told me a power grid in the neighborhood blew because there were too many air conditioners on in the building and the electric company was here working on it. They were quite shocked I had some lights working, most people have nothing.

My little map thingy won't let me log into my account and it's not sofisticated enough to have a password reminder, though I know for a fact what my password is.

So I can't see how many miles everyone is away.

THEY KILLED CHRIS! THOSE BASTARDS!!!

Shit!

Listen here bus driver bitch! You do not stop the bus to have a cigarette on my time and make me late for work. I will call on your ass.

And I just did.

She better not be driving my bus tomorrow!

I DON'T WANT TO DO LAUNDRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



*shuffles off to do laundry*