I've made a New Financial Year Resolution - To stop running away from social encounters.
This started when I was in a sport shop, surveying the wall of goggles and pondering if I wanted the Active type or the Sports type (both made by the same brand). Guy wanders up, also baffled by the wall of almost-but-not-quite identical items, and passes me some friendly commiseration. To which I blurt out something, grab the box I'd just replaced, and scurry off to the registers where I then ponder this reaction. It's...well, silly. I'm not the Alien who reads all lunchtime that I was in primary school, or Wednesday Adams from high school. I don't need to be so defensive around strangers.
So I've made this resolution, and so far it's working out ok. More casual conversation with other law students (by this point we're all on nodding terms at least), and when I ran into one on the street he actually cancelled his phone call to have a proper chat. Still hesitant in aerobics classes - they're not really my age group I guess. And I went to SCA fencing last Tuesday and felt very welcome. I think I need to dial it down - planning video nights on the strength of two hours acquaintance might be a little too much.
Similarly, my long habit of lurking in social media has had a peculiar effect - now I've got my MacGuffin and easy access to all these sites, I'm feeling more familiar with people than is in fact the case. I love hearing all these stories of home renovations, toddlers being imaginative and friends expecting newborns. But when I get the urge to offer advice or assistance, I remind myself that I've never had an actual conversation with some of these folks, at least not for several years. It's...odd. And still something I'm chewing over as to what is the correct ettiquette to apply.
In the vein of online self-improvement I've joined the Epic Quest Game, and set myself targets for professional skills development - got at least 4 places to apply to this weekend. I've also helped a friend with his cover letter and he has linked me to some jobs, so teamwork there.
Finally I've been managing to lose weight, build strength, and restrain myself from snacking like I used to - a lot of which is due to couchsurfing with my parents. I'm swimming 1km a week, and started using 5kg weights in pump class.
Lots of little goals, building towards becoming someone I want to be.