Let's see... Finished all but one my exams. Unfortunately, the one I need to finish is a ten page paper explaining what direction Japan's foreign policy is heading in. I'm apparently building that off of a paper I bullshitted with a theory I bullshitted. Stupid ten page papers that force you to actually create some semblence of work. Oh yes. I've apparently given up all semblence of sanity and am going to try and translate Japanese doujinshi over the summer. Wonder how I'll manage with that. The one I'm offering to translate's actually fairly basic- Denzel hero-worships Cloud, Cloud's obsessed with the church, Sephiroth randomly shows up and starts doing a Kingdom Hearts "embrace the darkness" spiel. My mother, who since being diagnosed with BPD, has been trying to get me to go on something to help me deal with stress talked with my therapist and has agreed to back off the issue for now. Thank. God. In about a month, I'm going in to be officially diagnosed with AS or HFA, whichever name the psychiatrist I'm seeing likes. I will also hopefully be starting meds for ADHD, which I'm hoping will improve my ability to focus and get work done. Because as it is now- I'm honestly scared shitless of how I'm going to be able to function in the real world. If this doesn't help, I don't know what I'm going to do. And in (looks at clock) five hours, I will be one year older.
I did end up missing my morning classes, if only in the admittedly delusional hopes that maybe if I lay in bed for longer, I'd stop feeling sick. Sadly (but not unsurprisingly) that was not the case. I am now taking fiber supplements every day, and that is definitely helping. I still feel somewhat bloated, but not in pain anywhere near as much. I'm still working on trying to figure out food triggers; at this point, I'm pretty sure spinach and yogurt (don't ask) aren't triggers. I also think garlic might not be, but no way to confirm that. I need to experiment more, espeically with dairy and vegetables/fruits, and I've been informed that I also need to consider food COMBINATIONS, which will just make everything even more confusing. And I also need to take into calculation that the foods I ate the day before or earlier could be what are making me react, not the foods I eat just before I get an attack. Bleh. I'm going to try and find an gastro-intestinalogist in the area this week, which is a fancy way of saying a doctor who deals with intestinal issues. I do have one, but he's always busy and about 3,000 miles away. On another note, I'm going to try and start an Aspie/HFA group at my college. I need to do a lot of running around and calling people before I can accomplish this, but I want to at least get it in the works for next year, if nothing else. I know there are Aspies here- I've run into one or two in classes. The catch is I don't know if they know they're Aspies, and discretion the better part of valour and all that. Anyway, I'm hoping to find more people 'like me' - one thing that I'm not happy about is that as I get better at noticing the people around me, I get better at noticing how people have no idea what to make of me or decide I'm an idiot or weirdo and should be avoided. Noticing the last one does not help my self-esteem.
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