The Promise I Made at the Beginning When I started this website almost two years ago, I made a promise to myself: to be as vulnerable as I could. To be honest about my healing, not because I have it figured out, but because I don’t. Because I wanted others to see that this work […]
Grief Two Years In (And Why No One Talks About It) There is something that doesn’t get talked about enough, and that is grief two years in after losing a loved one. By then, the casseroles are long gone. The check-in texts have stopped. People who once asked, “How are you holding up?” have quietly […]
Realizing My Memory Gaps There’s something that’s really stood out to me as I’ve reached this point in my healing journey: how bad my memory actually is. I didn’t fully realize it at first. It only became obvious when other people started pointing it out. The missed details. Forgotten conversations. Moments where I nodded along, […]
Seven Years In I am now going into 7 years this year since I was first diagnosed with having CPTSD. During that time I have had many ups and downs. I have battled denial, anger, shame, and even sadness. Healing is never a straight line. It’s laps. Sometimes progress, sometimes circling back to feelings you […]
Rethinking the New Year A lot of people see the New Year, at least the calendar one, as the time to make resolutions and set goals. And that’s perfectly fine to do, but I don’t really look at it that way. I feel you can make changes and set intentions any time of year, though […]
When the Nervous System Doesn’t Get the Memo The holidays can be difficult for anyone. The memories, nostalgia, and grief can all sit heavy, but living with CPTSD adds another layer entirely. It’s not just the feelings that may pop up. it’s the nervous system. While everyone else seems to slip into cozy-mode, your body […]
